Raw, Open and Real: Moving From Traumatic Aloneness to Universal Oneness

In Another Dimension by Christine Von Lossberg

As humans, we have two primary needs; the need for attachment and the need for authenticity, according to physician and author, Gabor Maté. In dysfunctional families, a child will typically suppress his or her authenticity needs to preserve the attachment with the primary caregiver, typically the mother.

The primary human need is attachment. Left unaddressed, our attachment wounds will persist into our adult lives and may cause us to unconsciously arrange our lives around not triggering the emotional memory of traumatic aloneness. This is what can keep us stuck in relationships, jobs or situations that we need to move on from.

The need to suppress authenticity to preserve attachment creates an “either/or” mindset that can stay with us and get projected onto other parts of our lives. The healing comes from mending this split so that both authenticity needs AND attachment needs can be abundantly met within oneself, and subsequently in our relationships. This is precisely the work that I do with helping people to heal the mother wound, transforming the “either/or” into a “both/and” that births you into a new way of Being.

Reconnection by Michelle Oravitz

This reunion in the self opens us up to the possibility of perceiving an even larger “and;” the larger bond of love and belonging that pervades all life. 

Authenticity needs: The experience of having our real selves being seen, accepted and validated, including our…

  • flaws and limitations
  • failures and mistakes
  • quirks and idiosyncrasies
  • gifts and talents
  • greatness and uniqueness

Attachment needs: The needs for love, safety and belonging including…

  • being seen and responded to with kindness
  • being emotionally held
  • feeling of belonging to a dyad and larger groups
  • physical touch and affection
  • being supported and understood
  • feeling emotionally safe

Andrei Remnev

We don’t have many models for what it looks like to persevere on this healing journey and many stop prematurely. A crucial piece is the willingness to be present with our own pain. As humans it’s natural to want to avoid pain, but usually it’s the avoidance of pain that is more painful than the actual pain. That’s why support is so essential. The wound begins in relationship and the ultimate healing occurs in relationship as well.

Without accompanying resistance of mental storyline, emotional pain can be deeply cleansing, clarifying and liberating. 

When the pain of that original aloneness of childhood is contacted and felt, there’s arises a powerful sense of ground. When we can stand conscious and not turn away from our own emotional pain, we are standing on the firm ground of self. There is immense relief in realizing that you are feeling the deep pain of the core wound and you are alive! The emotional pain which you thought may destroy you has only birthed you into the realization of your vastness, in seeing that you are larger than any painful emotion.

Child with Orange by Vincent van Gogh

Do you remember your little child self? The one who conversed with bees, flowers and butterflies? By facing the pain within you, you re-claim the little child waiting for you within. Your presence in the pain opens a door, where her innocence, vitality, playfulness, creativity, laughter and wisdom can flow into your life again.

In that moment of staying conscious in the face of your own pain, it’s possible to glimpse a larger you, the you that is part of all things. And to sense it’s mind-shattering compassion that has always already loved you in every nook and cranny of your life.  You can see that nothing has ever been separate from it’s love.

Lyudmila Romanova

The attachment wound (or mother wound) can be a portal to realizing a deeper, indestructible “attachment” bond that interconnects all life.

By being willing to stay conscious in the pain of it, a veil is lifted.

Every bit of emotional pain that you courageously face births you into a more robust expression of The Real. 

Over time, we realize that the ultimate security does not come from what the mind tells us, but from living from that raw, open, real core of presence within us; that core “ground” that is revealed in the center of our own pain. Over time, perhaps a lifetime, we become increasingly accepting that safety does not come from struggle or mental activity, but from a raw, open, not-knowing that can only guide us moment to moment. In this way, we become more child-like, with the surrender of a child but with the depth and wisdom that is carved out by the radical integrity that comes with facing our own pain.

The Flame of my Heart's Passion by Carol Bridges

This radical integrity is the foundation from where we build our lives of authenticity and service to the whole. 

It’s a paradox that by entering our deepest aloneness; the traumatic aloneness of childhood, we have the chance to see that we’ve never been separated from the Divine. The whole world then becomes our secure base for exploration. This safety is so vast, this embrace is eternal. You realize that you are free.

Life becomes a series of infinite sheddings down to the Real. 

Metabolizing your own pain makes you capable of embodying a more potent level of truth. As you embody this, you are serving those around you in a profound way.

Tamara Tavenier

Your deep authenticity, your originality, your eccentricity, is the most potent and exhilarating expression of the Divine. Ironically, the very things that we had to suppress as children become the very vehicles that the Divine seeks to express itself through us.

The truth is that your own presence is one with the presence of the Divine. 

You don’t have to do or be anything in particular for this to be true. You already are and always have been infinitely accepted and thoroughly loved by the divine. This becomes self-evident in your direct experience over time. At first it’s in glimpses, but those glimpses begin to expand until it becomes your primary mode of being.

Feeling safe in your originality and owning your sovereignty

The painful emotions of the mother wound serve to help you shed the layers of dysfunctional adaptations from your childhood and to reach the living core of fire within you…and to increasingly walk in the world as the light that frees.

Just Dare by Shiloh Sophia McCloud

In this way, the mother wound is a teacher. As we heal it, it transforms from a source of pain into a source of wisdom. Facing the pain doesn’t annihilate us as the ego would purport, but instead births us into a new relationship with life, from separation to oneness. That presence within us, the “Inner Beloved,” is inviting us in each moment into deeper communion with it, to hand over our masks, our false-ness, our reliance on the mind, our defenses and live life from an un-defended intimacy. 

When a new level of pain presents itself to be processed, we can increasingly see it as the “Inner Beloved” beckoning to us to merge with it in the fire of truth, to shed down yet another layer into oneness with the all, to realize the vast embrace where absolutely nothing is left out.

On a deeper level, the mother wound is a wound with life itself. And as we heal it on the personal level, we step into something universal. As we detox from the cultural and familial messages, a space is created within us to radiate powerful energies that benefit all life.

Night Nest by Robin Urton

How do we live this every day? 

The truth is shattering to the ego. It is counter to everything that our culture has taught us. In fact, our culture is designed to distract us from the very investigations that are necessary to realize this in our direct experience. It takes courage and radical integrity to really LIVE this. But there is nothing more nourishing or exhilarating.

From the Real, our most powerful place is one of the un-glamorous facing of our feelings in each moment. 

  • Facing our pain, taking the time to process, investigate and gain insight
  • Seeing our adaptive defenses and choosing to remain open
  • Embracing our places of shame and actively practicing self-love
  • In terms of productivity, act only when inspired, otherwise rest
  • Scrutinizing our moments of falseness and choosing to be real
  • Working each moment to not flee into concepts of “final, done, destination”

The flute Print by Yuliya Glavnaya

Reliance on the Real

  • Overflowing feelings of love and compassion for oneself and others
  • Becoming increasingly comfortable with not-knowing and finding your home in each moment
  • Exhilaration of being alive and in the mystery of life
  • Magical occurrences and synchronicities
  • An astounding level of clarity and aliveness
  • A profound sense of wonder and awe
  • Periodic arising of “traumatic residues” that come up to be felt and dissolve into presence.

When inner safety is firmly established, within the self and the Self, that’s when a wall comes down between the inner and the outer. (Just noticed a synchronicity that I’m writing this while in Berlin, a city in which a wall that separated the city into two parts came down.)

The mother wound is a potent access point to discover the deeper truth of who we are. And our willingness to be present with the pain of the mother wound is our biggest ally on the healing journey. The pain can be a portal into the bliss of self-realization.

Moon Woman Three by DagmarB

© Bethany Webster 2015

Art credits in order of appearance: “In Another Dimension” by Christine von Lossberg, “Reconnection” by Michelle Oravitz, title unknown by Anfrei Remnev, “Child with Orange” by Vincent van Gogh, title unknown by Lyudmila Romaneva, “The Flame of my Heart’s Passion” by Carol Bridges, unknown title by Tamara Tavenier, “Just Dare” by Shiloh Sophia McCloud, “Night Nest” by Robin Urton, “The Flute” by Yuliya Glavnaya, “Moon Woman 3” by Dagmarb

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17 thoughts on “Raw, Open and Real: Moving From Traumatic Aloneness to Universal Oneness

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  2. I can’t tell you how perfectly timed this post is for me! Uncanny! I love it…and thank you for sharing… I appreciate how you kick off the article…focusing on authenticity and attachment…and their dance with each other. Powerful stuff! I will contemplate this more…

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  3. This came at a time so crucial that I had given up on ever ever having a life after being drugged for over 34 years and in the midst of withdrawing from these drugs. it was like it was sent to me that very day. i want to thank you so very much not just for the wisdom but for choosing to relay it and sharing allowing healing that may never have taken place. Thank you form heart and soul.

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  4. Thank you so much Bethany for this wonderful article. I continue to be on this journey. Not only did I have the attachment with my mother but also with my sister so it was like a double whammy when I realised that I had to move on from them as I was not being authentic to myself. It’s taken me quite a while to sort through my feelings which included grief, confusion and just wanting to return to the old comfort zone. I felt that my whole foundations were shifting. Sometimes I take a look back at “what was” but am so proud of where I am now. It’s through the teachings of people like yourself that have given me courage to move forward. ❤

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  5. This was beautifully written. It nearly brought tears to my eyes. I made a commitment to partner with self about 4 years ago. It has and still is a wondrous journey… full of intimacy and, at times, gut wrenching truth. Your writing is a synchronistic confirmation of the maturation of my heart and spirit. Namaste Bethany

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  6. This post is just so potent! Your words about healing the mother wound…remind me of what I have read about certain indigenous peoples and how they “prepare” men and women to be adults…by facing their mortality…and in the process…let go of their biological mother (and her positive aspects and short-comings)…to embrace the earth mother (as you say the interconnectedness of all things)… Martin Prechtel writes about it here…in the context of the Mayan culture and how a man becomes an Acha:

    …his words were on the Tzutujil Mayan culture about how two people become prepared for an intimate relationship:

    “…ornate ritual that turned boys into men — a process that took many moons. The rite served to wean the boy from his earthly mother, but in the process he was married to the Earth Mother. As the young men went through the ritual, it was crucial that they brought their emotions close to the surface: they wept and wept for life…”

    “…only an initiated man or Acha could marry a woman and not be miserable and disappointed…it was the same for girls, since the husband of an uninitiated women would have to be a God or he would be trivialized and discarded as a failure, or, worse yet, start believing that he was one!”

    “…when his hallow-ness had been filled with the small goddess of his own heart, then when he married a woman, she could see that he could see her seeing him seeing her, and both looking at the little piece of God and Goddess that resided in the others’ “Heart Throne” and they were free to love each other properly, as themselves. Having understood and risked one’s life for the delicate survival of the divine, one would not readily or willingly destroy it, especially in the heart of the human being who can really love you.”

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  7. Dear Bethany, Infinitely thank You for verbalizing so clearly, so tender, so fierce, so compassionate, so loving, so piercing the structures and terains of human life. Gratitude, Love and Light ❤

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